RaZiAh

Jar Of Hearts

2011-03-02T07:58:00.002-08:00

I LOVE THIS SONG...I WONDER Y!

No I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love
I loved the most

I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Headaches

2011-02-23T04:41:00.001-08:00

I hv been having headaches alot! No doctor could figure out what the problem is. Well Uhm. I think I know. STRESS!! Everyday it's work home, work home. Well thatz ok for me, Coz I'm making money. But the stuff running in my mind. No freedom, no1 understands Hw I feel. I kinda hate Hw I look. People say I'm pretty but no1 seems to be able to prove it. They just say it. Other than that, it gives me headache when I think abt how I dun get what I want, y? I started believing in stuff I tot never existed and I'm now back to hating and never again believe in it! Dun I deserve to hv Wat I want? And then comes my freaking dad ruining my life. Not only has he failed as a husband and a father but also as a human being!

shopping...

2010-10-17T05:08:00.000-07:00

people always complaint about not having enough money to manage their home, or they do not have enough time to sleep....well hmm here is a solution....STOP SHOPPING! seriously helps....specially young girls and aunties(haha).....

for young girls...they spend most of their time out of their house, spending all their money on crap! like clothes showing off half of their body...fashion they call it....but ever tot y smaller clothes are more expensive? haha....girls spend so much money thinkin its for fashion, but forget that people manufacturing these clothes are making profit...y? less material used! and then jeweleries...oh come on.....get something nice not crappy...like this chain that looks like a dog's chain...haihz....or and shoes...buy! we need them but y buy shoes that u can hardly walk in? and that too wasting money...coz when ur not comfortable, u tend to let it sleep at home....no use! ok im done with girls...

now aunties....(INCLUDIN MY MOM) they love to go for sales! omg...dun they get it...its actually not a sale...coz lot of time and money are being wasted! they walk all day and then finally realize that its juz almost the same price but still buy stuff coz its a few bucks cheaper but still....u dun need those stuff!!!! at all!!! they get it coz its cheap! annoying!

thatz all i guess...haha

MOTHER

2010-10-16T07:50:00.000-07:00

For a single mother, motherhood is like the two sides of a coin, while she has the joys and the bliss of being around her children, the difficulties and the stress associated with it, cannot be ruled out as well. Being a single mother is probably the most difficult aspect of life.

but....

my mom never showed us how difficult it was do raise us without her irresponsible husband....she was never pampering us....she was hard on us and whenever we questioned her, she would say 'i dun want my children to be weak, fight the world'...and as a first step she never let us play around, she made us work at a very young age, she made us struggle to get whatever we wanted, would u believe even for a piece of chewing gum? we always questioned her...we got angry at her for not letting us enjoy our childhood....but today...when we look back on whatever she has done, she had a reason....

today my sister is doing her dentistry course, and me i am graduating next year.....and at a very young age her two children can stand on their own two feet......

but in order to make us strong....she had to sacrifice alot....she worked hard....she was there for us through thick and thin......she had our backs....she shed thousands of drops of blood, sweat and tears.....she made us believe that everything and everyone can be changed with love....

i am not only saying that my mom is the best....for me a woman who is willing to bear you in them for 9 months and then take the killing pain of giving birth to you, and then after that raising you, taking care of u.....u should go to ur mom, tell her u love her....coz if u think she has treated u bad, think of all the GOOD things she has done for u......what have u done for her? think....dun have to replay...all she wants is for u to love her....show her ur love...

How feelings are expressed...

2010-07-15T06:08:00.000-07:00

Everything is so fast and simple now, life moves at a breakneck speed… There is no time for silly romance.

Hundreds of people do believe they can meet their love match on the internet. Well, you register on the web site, look through the photos and profiles, then write several words in Yahoo Messenger or Skype…nice chat, then you can probably meet and go out somewhere for a drink, and then you can even marry that guy you’ve met on the Internet… Just think when was the last time you wrote the real letter… on paper, with a pen and without spellchecker… Years ago! But we write tons of emails and messages every day! The world has changed, but yet not so muchJ. It’s still the same - the same feelings, the same moral values; new outfits and high tech technologies made it look different, but people are the same in every century.

“I love you!” does not lose its meaning when typed on computer and not written with a pen, it’s in your heart :-)

FRIENDSHIP?

2010-04-15T07:10:00.000-07:00

Getting friends is not a contest on how many friends you can get it is about caring for other people. Most people get friends for popularity, presents, or just for complements. That is not what friends are for.
Being nice to your friends will make them be nice to others and you will get more friends. Being nice is hard you might say or do something wrong. To be nice you compliment and don't expect them back, give gifts out of kindness, or give them company if your friends are down.
Being to blunt can cause anger, pain, enemies, and no friends. If you are to blunt ask your self if it would hurt you. Mostly what you say or do your friends ponder and never forget. You can be some what blunt to prevent them from getting embarrassed.
To recover friendships it is hard most friends will except your forgiveness, but others don't. To recover a friendship you should write them a note telling how sorry you are and mean it. If you don't mean it you might end the friendship again.
It is bad when you cross the line for example talking behind their backs, lying, cheating, gossip, and more. When you have over done it is hard to gain trust from all your friends again. Crossing the line is the worst thing you can do to a friendship. Just don't talk about your friends behind their backs keep it to your self.
When you are being blunt just don't be to hard or mean and don't tell them in the open where everyone can hear you go some where quiet....love ur frenz...

DEATH...

2010-01-19T18:42:00.000-08:00

Death is the termination of the biological functions that define a living organism. It refers both to a particular event and to the condition that result thereby. The true nature of the latter has, for millennia, been a central concern of the world's religious traditions and of philosophical enquiry. Belief in some kind of afterlife or rebirth is a central aspect of many religious traditions.
Humans and the vast majority of other animals die in due course from senescence. Remarkable exceptions include the hydra, and the jellyfish Turitopsis nutricula, which is thought to possess in effect biological immortality.
Intervening phenomena which commonly bring about death earlier include malnutrition, disease, or accidents resulting in terminal physical injury. Predation is a cause of death for many species. Intentional human activity causing death includes suicide, homicide, and war. Roughly 150,000 people die each day across the globe. Death in the natural world can also occur as an indirect result of human activity: an increasing cause of species depletion in recent times has been destruction of ecosystems as a consequence of the widening spread of industrial technology.
Physiological death is now seen as less an event than a process: conditions once considered indicative of death are now reversible. Where in the process a dividing line is drawn between life and death depends on factors beyond the presence or absence of vital signs. In general, clinical death is neither necessary nor sufficient for a determination of legal death. A patient with working heart and lungs determined to be brain dead can be pronounced legally dead without clinical death occurring. Precise medical definition of death, in other words, becomes more problematic, paradoxically, as scientific knowledge and technology advance.

symptoms?

• Ceasing respiration
• the body no longer metabolizes
• No pulse
• Pallor mortis, paleness which happens in the 15–120 minutes after the death
• Livor mortis, a settling of the blood in the lower (dependent) portion of the body
• Algor mortis, the reduction in body temperature following death. This is generally a steady decline until matching ambient temperature

my life

2009-10-27T06:41:00.000-07:00

was born on the 27th of october 1987....great! now i feel old already....blogging reminded me my age...isy!..well anyway...mom, a ceylonese converted to marry my dad and dad is a malaysian paki....i have one sis...my younger baby sis....for me, my mom and sis are the only thing i kinda live for....we went thru some tough times and well now we kinda learned how to deal with life like that...

my mom has been there for both of us and my dad well...i think he juz failed not only as a husband and a father but also as a human being......me and my sis have made an oath to never ever let our mom go or let her down.....we are here to make her happy and make her very proud....

well this is my life...not much but yeah....im happy to be here and leading this complicated life!

loneliness

2009-10-16T23:03:00.000-07:00

i whispered to the moon
'give me back my love'

my love, my paradise

without him the dark sky becomes my companion,
loneliness hugs me tight

dear moon, do not let it be daylight,
let the darkness remain and be as lonely as me....

-its a translated poem....-

Hope

2009-10-16T20:17:00.001-07:00

When all about you is black with gloom,
And all you feel is pending doom.
When your bones are racked with grim despair -
When every breath is a gasp for air.
Keep on going, though you need to grope,
For around the bend is a ray of hope.

A ray of hope is perhaps all that's left,
As your will to live has been bereft.
You've lost it all, it's just no use!
You can end it all, you need no excuse.
But throw away that piece of rope,
And give yourself a chance of hope.

Just give yourself another day,
Brushing aside what your thoughts may say.
This is your life and you can make a new start,
By ignoring the brain - just follow the heart.
Taking baby steps in order to cope,
And minute by minute you'll build on your hope.

Build on your hope,. one day at a time,
Though the road be steep and hard to climb.
The hurts of the past - they should be dead.
The fears of the future are all in your head.
Just live in the present and refuse to mope
Your life will sparkle for you're living in hope.

how powerful love can be!

2009-10-13T06:41:00.001-07:00

A woman came out of her house and saw 3 old men with long white beards sitting in her front yard. She did not recognize them.

She said "I don't think I know you, but you must be hungry. Please come in and have something to eat."

"Is the man of the house home?", they asked.

"No", she said. "He's out."

"Then we cannot come in", they replied.

In the evening when her husband came home, she told him what had happened. "Go tell them I am home and invite them in!"

The woman went out and invited the men in.

"We do not go into a House together," they replied.

"Why is that?" she wanted to know.

One of the old men explained: "His name is Wealth," he said pointing to one of his friends, and said pointing to another one, "He is Success, and I am Love." Then he added, "Now go in and discuss with your husband which one of us you want in your home."

The woman went in and told her husband what was said. Her husband was overjoyed. "How nice!!", he said. "Since that is the case, let us invite Wealth. Let him come and fill our home with wealth!"

His wife disagreed. "My dear, why don't we invite Success?"

Their daughter-in-law was listening from the other corner of the house. She jumped in with her own suggestion: "Would it not be better to invite Love? Our home will then be filled with love!"

"Let us heed our daughter-in-law's advice," said the husband to his wife. "Go out and invite Love to be our guest."

The woman went out and asked the 3 old men, "Which one of you is Love? Please come in and be our guest"

Love got up and started walking toward the house. The other 2 also got up and followed him. Surprised, the lady asked Wealth and Success, "I only invited Love, Why are you coming in?"

The old men replied together: "If you had invited Wealth or Success, the other two of us would've stayed out, but since you invited Love, wherever He goes, we go with him. Wherever there is Love, there is also Wealth and Success!!!!!!"